Entry-level jobs no longer exist.
Mar. 15th, 2025 08:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianToday I wasted more time on a fruitless job search. Entry-level jobs no longer exist. I'm not exactly an entry-level employee, I've just been out of the job market for a long time and never properly entered it in the first place: the only full-time job I've had outside of student programs and the military was a gig picking and packing customer orders and loading trucks in a kitchenware warehouse. It was a temp job I got once I got home after finishing my military technical training, and, after a couple of months, I quit it to start college. I don't really have much of a verifiable job history, definitely not a recent one.
Today I thought about giving up on my expatriation plans and going to live in Sacramento. Or just going to live in Sacramento until I'm ready to leave this country. I somehow ended up on the Sacramento sub-reddit (a lot of internet searches take me to reddit), where I read about the difficulty of getting around on public transportation for people who live outside of downtown/midtown (which are expensive areas) and a business owner struggling to get rid of homeless people who are camping on the business property, and these things reminded me of some of the reasons why I want to leave, and how there's pretty much nowhere to go if I stay. Both leaving and staying are tough, so I may as well keep on trying to leave, since I want that one more.
I also started my application to volunteer with unicef today. I felt excited because I was finally taking a concrete step to get out of this country. I need to upload my diploma, which I don't have, so I emailed my DOR counselor to ask for the seventy-five dollars a copy costs. Until I upload that, my application will be incomplete, which is not a big deal since there are no openings in Bhutan right now. But I was surprised that a volunteer organization placed such a premium on academic credentials. I suppose they are super important for people volunteering specialist skills. Most volunteer organizations have jobs that most anyone can do, that's what I had in mind.
Unicef has a long policy on "trans and gender non-conforming" people, with very generous benefits, including medical transport out of the host country for transition-related medical procedures. The drafter's definition of "gender non-conforming" seems to be something to do with "gender identity" other than male/female, which is nonsense because male and female are reproductive sexes and what the hell does it mean to identify with a reproductive sex? Typical gender ideology bullshit, not even being a fully formed ideology, just a bunch of vague, half-assed concepts. I'm beyond tired of it, and it's yet another reason why I want to leave this country. Reading that garbage put me in a bad mood, especially the parts about everyone having a right to be addressed by their preferred pronouns and access to lockers and bathrooms that match their gender identity. I didn't feel so excited to work with unicef after reading through that document. Being tired affected my mood as well.
I feel like shit honestly. I did what I could to make peace with losing so much food. I finally gave up on what was left and took it out with the trash. I see the brightside: that this is a good opportunity for me to clean out my fridge, and that the cleaning will be easier than I thought it would be. The tofu lasted longer than I expected, and I was able to make it last a day or two longer by broiling it. But I've been feeling dehydrated despite taking in roughly the same amount of fluid these past couple of days, just as I was the last time I was over-consuming protein. I'm hoping DOR sends my reimbursement check so I can buy more food, melatonin, and meds. In the meantime, there is the food bank. They don't usually offer any vegan protein, however.
Despite all the shit I'm taking for sleep (extended-release melatonin, progesterone, l-theanine, and magnesium), I still need quick-release melatonin, in particular, for getting back to sleep when I wake up in the middle of the night. Glycine would also probably help a lot.
Today I thought about giving up on my expatriation plans and going to live in Sacramento. Or just going to live in Sacramento until I'm ready to leave this country. I somehow ended up on the Sacramento sub-reddit (a lot of internet searches take me to reddit), where I read about the difficulty of getting around on public transportation for people who live outside of downtown/midtown (which are expensive areas) and a business owner struggling to get rid of homeless people who are camping on the business property, and these things reminded me of some of the reasons why I want to leave, and how there's pretty much nowhere to go if I stay. Both leaving and staying are tough, so I may as well keep on trying to leave, since I want that one more.
I also started my application to volunteer with unicef today. I felt excited because I was finally taking a concrete step to get out of this country. I need to upload my diploma, which I don't have, so I emailed my DOR counselor to ask for the seventy-five dollars a copy costs. Until I upload that, my application will be incomplete, which is not a big deal since there are no openings in Bhutan right now. But I was surprised that a volunteer organization placed such a premium on academic credentials. I suppose they are super important for people volunteering specialist skills. Most volunteer organizations have jobs that most anyone can do, that's what I had in mind.
Unicef has a long policy on "trans and gender non-conforming" people, with very generous benefits, including medical transport out of the host country for transition-related medical procedures. The drafter's definition of "gender non-conforming" seems to be something to do with "gender identity" other than male/female, which is nonsense because male and female are reproductive sexes and what the hell does it mean to identify with a reproductive sex? Typical gender ideology bullshit, not even being a fully formed ideology, just a bunch of vague, half-assed concepts. I'm beyond tired of it, and it's yet another reason why I want to leave this country. Reading that garbage put me in a bad mood, especially the parts about everyone having a right to be addressed by their preferred pronouns and access to lockers and bathrooms that match their gender identity. I didn't feel so excited to work with unicef after reading through that document. Being tired affected my mood as well.
I feel like shit honestly. I did what I could to make peace with losing so much food. I finally gave up on what was left and took it out with the trash. I see the brightside: that this is a good opportunity for me to clean out my fridge, and that the cleaning will be easier than I thought it would be. The tofu lasted longer than I expected, and I was able to make it last a day or two longer by broiling it. But I've been feeling dehydrated despite taking in roughly the same amount of fluid these past couple of days, just as I was the last time I was over-consuming protein. I'm hoping DOR sends my reimbursement check so I can buy more food, melatonin, and meds. In the meantime, there is the food bank. They don't usually offer any vegan protein, however.
Despite all the shit I'm taking for sleep (extended-release melatonin, progesterone, l-theanine, and magnesium), I still need quick-release melatonin, in particular, for getting back to sleep when I wake up in the middle of the night. Glycine would also probably help a lot.
