Emptiness is Hungriness
Feb. 28th, 2025 08:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianI've been trying to get outside in the afternoon because sun exposure seems to help me sleep more deeply (also I was deficient in vitamin d3 as of last November even though I take a supplement daily). But it gives me headaches. I thought I was under-hydrated at first, but now I'm not so sure. I'm not supposed to take my migraine medication more than twice per month, and I've already far exceeded that limit. I take magnesium daily to prevent these sun headaches, but I moved the dose to bedtime a couple of days ago because I thought it might help me sleep. Maybe I need to move it back to the morning.
So I'm composing this instead of studying as I wait for my proto-headache to go away.
I feel like this has been a rather productive week. I felt especially satisfied today because my medical provider is referring me to endocrinology for my chronic hypoglycemia. Maybe I'll finally find the cause behind it and get rid of it. I didn't have this condition when I was a child; I seem to have developed it, sometime around university if I recall. Maybe that is a clue.
I also got the results of yesterday's blood test: my hemoglobin count is normal now. I'm going to finish off the iron supplements, but I'm no longer worried about anemia. I have been feeling warmer, but I don't think the unnatural sensation of coldness is completely gone. It's not easy for me to gauge because this has been such a warm week. I've been able to go out in shorts for the past two or three days.
My supplement order arrived this morning, much more quickly than I'd expected. iHerb is awesome; I would recommend them to anyone who needs or wants to try supplements. So I got to try my squalene today and I am happy with it so far. I put it in my hair and on my face. I was afraid it would be oily because it's derived from olive oil and because I saw one or two reviews that mentioned greasiness, but it felt only slightly greasy. My skin felt very moisturized, looked nice, and my hair feels soft as well. I gave myself another glycolic acid skin peel, and I'm expecting (hoping?) my problems with pih to be over in a month or so with the squalene helping the healing along.
There are so many things I wanted to buy this month, but they aren't going to happen. The zipper on my beloved dinosaur backpack has been kaput for at least a couple of months, so I treated myself to another backpack from the local thrift store. It cost eight bucks. I'd planned to get nice garbage bins that close for my bathroom and kitchen, particularly so that my future guests are not treated to the sight of all my used dental floss and whatnot, but that's probably gotta wait until next month. I should be using some lotion along with my body oil, but...eh, my skin is soft if not fully moisturized. I need new underwear; the briefs I wear during my period have gotten all stretched out and are nearly falling off of me. I've been wearing them underneath a pair of boxer briefs to hold them up. I wanted an adaptor so that I can sync the mobile phone via my Ethernet.
Something else I've noticed on these dating sites is that there are a TON of people who are into travelling, eating out, and going out in general. It's a HUGE mismatch for me; I don't find going out compelling unless it's a natural setting, away from people and noise, and most places aside from that are over-stimulating as well. I do like hiking, but I'm not the sort of person to drive to every national park in the area to do it; driving sort of defeats the point of walking or hiking.
Some (maybe most) of these people who love travel have a lot of photos that appear to depict places they've visited...and then the profile is almost devoid of text. Empty people who just consume sensory experiences? That's what popped into my mind.
So I'm composing this instead of studying as I wait for my proto-headache to go away.
I feel like this has been a rather productive week. I felt especially satisfied today because my medical provider is referring me to endocrinology for my chronic hypoglycemia. Maybe I'll finally find the cause behind it and get rid of it. I didn't have this condition when I was a child; I seem to have developed it, sometime around university if I recall. Maybe that is a clue.
I also got the results of yesterday's blood test: my hemoglobin count is normal now. I'm going to finish off the iron supplements, but I'm no longer worried about anemia. I have been feeling warmer, but I don't think the unnatural sensation of coldness is completely gone. It's not easy for me to gauge because this has been such a warm week. I've been able to go out in shorts for the past two or three days.
My supplement order arrived this morning, much more quickly than I'd expected. iHerb is awesome; I would recommend them to anyone who needs or wants to try supplements. So I got to try my squalene today and I am happy with it so far. I put it in my hair and on my face. I was afraid it would be oily because it's derived from olive oil and because I saw one or two reviews that mentioned greasiness, but it felt only slightly greasy. My skin felt very moisturized, looked nice, and my hair feels soft as well. I gave myself another glycolic acid skin peel, and I'm expecting (hoping?) my problems with pih to be over in a month or so with the squalene helping the healing along.
There are so many things I wanted to buy this month, but they aren't going to happen. The zipper on my beloved dinosaur backpack has been kaput for at least a couple of months, so I treated myself to another backpack from the local thrift store. It cost eight bucks. I'd planned to get nice garbage bins that close for my bathroom and kitchen, particularly so that my future guests are not treated to the sight of all my used dental floss and whatnot, but that's probably gotta wait until next month. I should be using some lotion along with my body oil, but...eh, my skin is soft if not fully moisturized. I need new underwear; the briefs I wear during my period have gotten all stretched out and are nearly falling off of me. I've been wearing them underneath a pair of boxer briefs to hold them up. I wanted an adaptor so that I can sync the mobile phone via my Ethernet.
Something else I've noticed on these dating sites is that there are a TON of people who are into travelling, eating out, and going out in general. It's a HUGE mismatch for me; I don't find going out compelling unless it's a natural setting, away from people and noise, and most places aside from that are over-stimulating as well. I do like hiking, but I'm not the sort of person to drive to every national park in the area to do it; driving sort of defeats the point of walking or hiking.
Some (maybe most) of these people who love travel have a lot of photos that appear to depict places they've visited...and then the profile is almost devoid of text. Empty people who just consume sensory experiences? That's what popped into my mind.
