Korean and Depression
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disappointed_lesbianTomorrow is my first endocrinology appointment; depending on how it goes, I'll consider seeing a psychiatrist. Maybe a wonky endocrine system is the cause of my problems. Shit, I just rememebered that I haven't filled out any of the forms they sent me.
I requested my dermatology referral today. During the check-in, I was told that I'm due for a mammogram. Christ I've gotten old. I don't want anyone or anything touching
Anyways, I said I'd do it at some other time. It's another appointment for which I'd have to travel out of town, and those types of appointments are tiring and time-consuming, so I'm not looking forward to having another one anytime soon.
I need to rapidly improve my Korean so that I can graduate from the master's program in a timely fashion. I don't want to have to take introductory Korean language courses at the same time as the core asian studies courses. I'm going to try to finish all five levels of the Rosetta Stone course before the end of this year. That'll put me at low-intermediate level. Also I'm going to barrel through Pimsleur Korean just because getting in some extra practice while walking is so convenient. Even if I never manage to remember how to pronounce these 3- and 4-syllable verb forms, the speaking practice and the vocabulary review are valuable. Another annoying thing about Pimsleur Korean is that the pronunciation continually switches back and forth (I'm guessing it's pronunciation from two different parts of the country); I'm just going to ignore that shit and stick to one type of pronunciation when I respond to the prompts.
I wonder how long it'll take before the Korean spoken in N. and S. Korea diverge to the point of mutual unintelligibility. So long as N. Koreans remain isolated, their language isn't going to keep pace with that of S. Korea.
Tonight is going to be another forced workout. They are psychically painful because my body is crying out for sleep, not even awake enough to focus on a workout, but it's not bedtime yet and I wouldn't be able to sleep just now even if I wanted to. The one third of an extended-release melatonin pill worked last night...but I still woke up too early. Same thing that always happens, no matter how well I sleep. It's supposedly a sign of depression, waking up too early. I can only hope that's not the case for me because I'm not taking any more goddamned meds and I don't have a lot of power over how depressing my life is.
Maybe I'll be able to find someone to talk to at the university, but I've had so many unpleasant and/or unsatisfying social interactions that I'm very wary of approaching anyone. I'm better off trying to meet someone local online. Online is the low-effort way of vetting people.
I requested my dermatology referral today. During the check-in, I was told that I'm due for a mammogram. Christ I've gotten old. I don't want anyone or anything touching
Anyways, I said I'd do it at some other time. It's another appointment for which I'd have to travel out of town, and those types of appointments are tiring and time-consuming, so I'm not looking forward to having another one anytime soon.
I need to rapidly improve my Korean so that I can graduate from the master's program in a timely fashion. I don't want to have to take introductory Korean language courses at the same time as the core asian studies courses. I'm going to try to finish all five levels of the Rosetta Stone course before the end of this year. That'll put me at low-intermediate level. Also I'm going to barrel through Pimsleur Korean just because getting in some extra practice while walking is so convenient. Even if I never manage to remember how to pronounce these 3- and 4-syllable verb forms, the speaking practice and the vocabulary review are valuable. Another annoying thing about Pimsleur Korean is that the pronunciation continually switches back and forth (I'm guessing it's pronunciation from two different parts of the country); I'm just going to ignore that shit and stick to one type of pronunciation when I respond to the prompts.
I wonder how long it'll take before the Korean spoken in N. and S. Korea diverge to the point of mutual unintelligibility. So long as N. Koreans remain isolated, their language isn't going to keep pace with that of S. Korea.
Tonight is going to be another forced workout. They are psychically painful because my body is crying out for sleep, not even awake enough to focus on a workout, but it's not bedtime yet and I wouldn't be able to sleep just now even if I wanted to. The one third of an extended-release melatonin pill worked last night...but I still woke up too early. Same thing that always happens, no matter how well I sleep. It's supposedly a sign of depression, waking up too early. I can only hope that's not the case for me because I'm not taking any more goddamned meds and I don't have a lot of power over how depressing my life is.
Maybe I'll be able to find someone to talk to at the university, but I've had so many unpleasant and/or unsatisfying social interactions that I'm very wary of approaching anyone. I'm better off trying to meet someone local online. Online is the low-effort way of vetting people.
