Liberty or Death
Mar. 19th, 2026 11:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianMy wrist hurts and I have a tingling sensation in my dominant hand. Repetitive stress injury from using the mouse to search for Taiwan-related shit online.
I'm never going to get to Taiwan until I get a source of income, or rather, another source of income. Even the programs that pay airfare require money up-front. To get into a language school, I have to show proof that I have at least four thousand dollars in a bank account. This applies to scholarship applicants. To get into a university, I have to pay the first semester's tuition because the scholarship funds won't be paid until I register, which I cannot do without paying, even if the school knows I'll be receiving a scholarship.
I used to think that scholarships were for poor people, but a lifetime of experience investigating requirements has proven that they are not.
I can see that living in Taiwan will involve a lot of bureaucratic bullshit. They need to align their scholarship program with their school application policies.
I found sources for some cheap flights and can get a plan ticket for four to five hundred dollars. But I have no way to save up that much money. Maybe that's not even cheap; I just had eight hundred to a thousand dollars in mind in terms of cost but I really had no firm basis for that range.
So I'm stuck now. My options are: continuing to look for a job here and either saving up before leaving or working remotely and trying to get a digital nomad visa; or finding a volunteership on the island that includes accommodation, or finding more scholarships.
I had a nice long walk today after my lifting session. I was amazed at how long I could go before lunch. I got home an hour and a half after my new lunchtime, which was already an hour later than my previous lunch time, and I felt fine. About a block from my apartment, it occurred to me that I'll be getting back at least some of my rental deposit once I leave this apartment, so some of that money can go towards my trip. However, I can't leave it until I all my plans in Taiwan are settled; otherwise I'll spend some time homeless again. Unless I can stay in a hotel for a couple of weeks in between moving out and my flight. That of course will cost a fortune. It would be great if I could get a loan. The scholarship for language school seems to be enough to live on, so I'd have no trouble paying it back. But who the hell is going to give me five or six thousand dollars? I don't have enough credit built up.
All of this I'm going through for the privilege of walking alone, at night, where ever I please, without having to fear rape. Something most of them take for granted. All this stress and strife due to men and their violence and sense of entitlement to female bodies.
I'm never going to get to Taiwan until I get a source of income, or rather, another source of income. Even the programs that pay airfare require money up-front. To get into a language school, I have to show proof that I have at least four thousand dollars in a bank account. This applies to scholarship applicants. To get into a university, I have to pay the first semester's tuition because the scholarship funds won't be paid until I register, which I cannot do without paying, even if the school knows I'll be receiving a scholarship.
I used to think that scholarships were for poor people, but a lifetime of experience investigating requirements has proven that they are not.
I can see that living in Taiwan will involve a lot of bureaucratic bullshit. They need to align their scholarship program with their school application policies.
I found sources for some cheap flights and can get a plan ticket for four to five hundred dollars. But I have no way to save up that much money. Maybe that's not even cheap; I just had eight hundred to a thousand dollars in mind in terms of cost but I really had no firm basis for that range.
So I'm stuck now. My options are: continuing to look for a job here and either saving up before leaving or working remotely and trying to get a digital nomad visa; or finding a volunteership on the island that includes accommodation, or finding more scholarships.
I had a nice long walk today after my lifting session. I was amazed at how long I could go before lunch. I got home an hour and a half after my new lunchtime, which was already an hour later than my previous lunch time, and I felt fine. About a block from my apartment, it occurred to me that I'll be getting back at least some of my rental deposit once I leave this apartment, so some of that money can go towards my trip. However, I can't leave it until I all my plans in Taiwan are settled; otherwise I'll spend some time homeless again. Unless I can stay in a hotel for a couple of weeks in between moving out and my flight. That of course will cost a fortune. It would be great if I could get a loan. The scholarship for language school seems to be enough to live on, so I'd have no trouble paying it back. But who the hell is going to give me five or six thousand dollars? I don't have enough credit built up.
All of this I'm going through for the privilege of walking alone, at night, where ever I please, without having to fear rape. Something most of them take for granted. All this stress and strife due to men and their violence and sense of entitlement to female bodies.
