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disappointed_lesbianToday feels rather like a failure because I've failed to get back to my regular routine of studying eighteen new mandarin flashcards followed by lifting, cycling, and lunch; however, today is a success because I slept closer to a full night last night and because I have a new skincare strategy that's going to cost me nothing right now.
On 'advice' from the insomnia sub-reddit again, I had psyllium husk at bedtime last night. I'd tried it before with no noticeable results, but I had perhaps three times as much this time. I slept more or less until it was my usual time to get up, seven a.m., but I'd gone to bed later than usual because I was trying to finish online shopping, so I didn't actually give myself the chance to sleep a full eight or even seven hours. Determining the actual results of this sleep trial will take another night or two.
As I've been shopping for more effective (and less damaging) skincare products, I've come across serums, cleansers, and moisturizers that contain a relatively low concentration of the acids I've used as skin peels. I shifted my search to these products, couldn't really find anything cheap/satisfactory, and had trouble with the one I decided on because the price changed a lot after I'd added it to my digital cart. I tried to find it elsewhere and ended up visiting the local corporate pharmacy, which is one thing that pulled me away from this morning's routine. The product was even more expensive at the pharmacy, it wasn't at the nearest chain grocery store, and I needed to eat before I developed a migraine, so I came home empty-handed.
While I was idly browsing online, hoping that someone would respond to my technical support request concerning the digital cart, I decided to more or less just make my own version of one of these products. The only obstacle is measuring out a suitable amount of acid (glycolic, I decided on) because my trusted supplier sells it in relatively high concentrations only. I was about to purchase more from this supplier when I checked my medicine cabinet and found that I still have some left over.
So, starting today, I'll be running a skincare trial: regularly applied low-concentration glycolic acid rather than a rarely applied high concentration of the same. This should eliminate the risk of further pih and gradually resurface my skin. I have hope again but waiting is still going to be painful.
Just before I fully woke up this morning, I was having a vivid dream. I was in a vehicle with some unknown people, I did something to upset the car, and we began weaving and ended up crashing. It was like a cut-scene in a movie because I didn't really ever see or otherwise experience the crash even though I knew it'd happened. I felt guilty about what I'd done, but I never saw any flaming wrecks, traffic jams, or injured people.I never feared for my life or saw whatever we'd ended up hitting. First the car was going sideways through traffic on a multi-lane highway (which I saw from outside the car, as if watching a movie), there was a blankness or lack of experience, and then I was out of the car, away from the other passengers.
As I was walking away from the highway, two guys, friends I think, but possibly brothers, came up behind me. One invited me to their room. It seemed like he'd been one of the people in the car with me, but that didn't seem to matter to either of us. They were attractive and I agreed to go. But then I woke up! Dammit. Perhaps one day something better than these titillating dreams will happen in real life.
I got my seven-dollar bottle of low-cal sweetener last night and it's already making a large difference in the amount of sugar I consume. I was having so much coconut sugar last month that I feared I'd put on weight.
I woke up from my dream to the unpleasant sensation of wetness in my bedding. I got up, showered, and forgot all about it until now, bedtime. There's blood on the blanket I sleep in and I don't want to sleep in a bloody blanket but I don't have another natural fiber blanket, just polyester crap that keeps me up sweating all night. If I weren't poor, I'd have at least one backup blanket.
On 'advice' from the insomnia sub-reddit again, I had psyllium husk at bedtime last night. I'd tried it before with no noticeable results, but I had perhaps three times as much this time. I slept more or less until it was my usual time to get up, seven a.m., but I'd gone to bed later than usual because I was trying to finish online shopping, so I didn't actually give myself the chance to sleep a full eight or even seven hours. Determining the actual results of this sleep trial will take another night or two.
As I've been shopping for more effective (and less damaging) skincare products, I've come across serums, cleansers, and moisturizers that contain a relatively low concentration of the acids I've used as skin peels. I shifted my search to these products, couldn't really find anything cheap/satisfactory, and had trouble with the one I decided on because the price changed a lot after I'd added it to my digital cart. I tried to find it elsewhere and ended up visiting the local corporate pharmacy, which is one thing that pulled me away from this morning's routine. The product was even more expensive at the pharmacy, it wasn't at the nearest chain grocery store, and I needed to eat before I developed a migraine, so I came home empty-handed.
While I was idly browsing online, hoping that someone would respond to my technical support request concerning the digital cart, I decided to more or less just make my own version of one of these products. The only obstacle is measuring out a suitable amount of acid (glycolic, I decided on) because my trusted supplier sells it in relatively high concentrations only. I was about to purchase more from this supplier when I checked my medicine cabinet and found that I still have some left over.
So, starting today, I'll be running a skincare trial: regularly applied low-concentration glycolic acid rather than a rarely applied high concentration of the same. This should eliminate the risk of further pih and gradually resurface my skin. I have hope again but waiting is still going to be painful.
Just before I fully woke up this morning, I was having a vivid dream. I was in a vehicle with some unknown people, I did something to upset the car, and we began weaving and ended up crashing. It was like a cut-scene in a movie because I didn't really ever see or otherwise experience the crash even though I knew it'd happened. I felt guilty about what I'd done, but I never saw any flaming wrecks, traffic jams, or injured people.I never feared for my life or saw whatever we'd ended up hitting. First the car was going sideways through traffic on a multi-lane highway (which I saw from outside the car, as if watching a movie), there was a blankness or lack of experience, and then I was out of the car, away from the other passengers.
As I was walking away from the highway, two guys, friends I think, but possibly brothers, came up behind me. One invited me to their room. It seemed like he'd been one of the people in the car with me, but that didn't seem to matter to either of us. They were attractive and I agreed to go. But then I woke up! Dammit. Perhaps one day something better than these titillating dreams will happen in real life.
I got my seven-dollar bottle of low-cal sweetener last night and it's already making a large difference in the amount of sugar I consume. I was having so much coconut sugar last month that I feared I'd put on weight.
I woke up from my dream to the unpleasant sensation of wetness in my bedding. I got up, showered, and forgot all about it until now, bedtime. There's blood on the blanket I sleep in and I don't want to sleep in a bloody blanket but I don't have another natural fiber blanket, just polyester crap that keeps me up sweating all night. If I weren't poor, I'd have at least one backup blanket.
