Dicyclomine
Jan. 30th, 2026 11:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianI still can't sleep through the night, I still have ibs. ibs is exacerbated by stress and my stress isn't going to go away. So I'm thinking that I'll never recover.
I took dicyclomine this morning and have been unable to dispel the attendant grogginess. Cup after cup of coffee and espresso seemed to have no effect. I went out for a couple of dark chocolate bars, and I still feel unalert, woozy, and slightly dizzy. I could try an energy drink, but walking back downtown is too much. I'm running out of positive thinking ability. There is nothing to be positive about. Without the ability to focus, I have nothing.
So I finally remembered to schedule a dental cleaning. I can't be seen until May. My teeth are fuzzy now.
Trying to manage my misery. Today I started working through a super basic text pertinent to applied math called Physical Modelling in MATLAB. Since I cannot afford MATLAB (and probably couldn't run it anyways), I'm using the free alternative Octave. I made it through the first couple of chapters and wrote a simple script that models the number of bikes left in two cities that are a part of a bikesharing program. Hooray. The chapters are short, so I'm going to try to complete one per day so that I can quickly move on to something more advanced. I'm thinking applied linear algebra would be interesting, but the interloan public library system has no books on this subject. I can no longer even request books from the local library system because they're now using a third-party vendor to service accounts, and I don't want to give this company my personal information.
I've finished two chapters of Are Prisons Obsolete? The first chapter explained that the number of prisons in California exploded starting in the 1980s. The second chapter explored the relationship between African slavery in this country and the development of a penal system, the point being to explore the idea that prisons (in the U.S. only, I guess) are inherently racist. The author repeatedly mentions that most prison inmates are "black and brown," presumably to illustrate this inherent racism. I hate it when people refer to ethnic minorities with these terms. It's one step away from "colored person." Ok, maybe two steps. "Person of color" is the term that's just one step away.
Damn typing on this keyboard is a pain in the ass. I deposited my check from dor today, so I'm going to try to order a new keyboard later.
Anyways, I think the author has so far failed to show that prisons are inherently racist. She even undermines her own point by describing how prison conditions just after the end of legal slavery were worse than slavery.
I took dicyclomine this morning and have been unable to dispel the attendant grogginess. Cup after cup of coffee and espresso seemed to have no effect. I went out for a couple of dark chocolate bars, and I still feel unalert, woozy, and slightly dizzy. I could try an energy drink, but walking back downtown is too much. I'm running out of positive thinking ability. There is nothing to be positive about. Without the ability to focus, I have nothing.
So I finally remembered to schedule a dental cleaning. I can't be seen until May. My teeth are fuzzy now.
Trying to manage my misery. Today I started working through a super basic text pertinent to applied math called Physical Modelling in MATLAB. Since I cannot afford MATLAB (and probably couldn't run it anyways), I'm using the free alternative Octave. I made it through the first couple of chapters and wrote a simple script that models the number of bikes left in two cities that are a part of a bikesharing program. Hooray. The chapters are short, so I'm going to try to complete one per day so that I can quickly move on to something more advanced. I'm thinking applied linear algebra would be interesting, but the interloan public library system has no books on this subject. I can no longer even request books from the local library system because they're now using a third-party vendor to service accounts, and I don't want to give this company my personal information.
I've finished two chapters of Are Prisons Obsolete? The first chapter explained that the number of prisons in California exploded starting in the 1980s. The second chapter explored the relationship between African slavery in this country and the development of a penal system, the point being to explore the idea that prisons (in the U.S. only, I guess) are inherently racist. The author repeatedly mentions that most prison inmates are "black and brown," presumably to illustrate this inherent racism. I hate it when people refer to ethnic minorities with these terms. It's one step away from "colored person." Ok, maybe two steps. "Person of color" is the term that's just one step away.
Damn typing on this keyboard is a pain in the ass. I deposited my check from dor today, so I'm going to try to order a new keyboard later.
Anyways, I think the author has so far failed to show that prisons are inherently racist. She even undermines her own point by describing how prison conditions just after the end of legal slavery were worse than slavery.
