1/4 of a pill
Dec. 30th, 2025 10:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianI waste a lot of time waiting for painkillers to kick in. Especially when I underdose and have to take more medication to get rid of the pain. But today at least I did time on the treadmill while I waited for my ibuprofen to start working.
Today I was out running errands during the time at which I usually having my afternoon caffeine, which keeps me functional/not overly drowsy throughout the evening. I never got that afternoon caffeine and now, at eight pm, I'm quite drowsy. Bedtime isn't for another three hours, so I'll be struggling to be productive until then.
If I'm fortunate, perhaps the lack of caffeine will help me sleep tonight. I haven't noticed the afternoon caffeine interfering with my sleep, but one or two people on the insomnia subreddit claim that cutting back on caffeine, even early in the day, helped them to sleep.
I went to my bank today and was caught off guard when the teller asked for updated ID. My DL expired recently. I haven't replaced it because I don't have the forty-five dollars it costs. I'm hoping to find a charity that will help me.
I went back to 3/4 of a melatonin pill last night and my sleep improved again. 1/4 of a pill makes such a huge difference.
The Czech Republic is mentioned on the podcast episode I started studying today, and it make me think about studying Czech. I miss the language. Such a nice language, a zillion times more pleasant than Mandarin. What am I doing with my life, giving up on a language I love to study a language I don't even like to go to a country that's going to get invaded? This plan is sprung from a mind that hasn't slept a full night in literally years. But I feel like, even if I go to Taiwan for only a year, it would be better than staying here. Which is not exactly true because, even if I have a great year, I'll be homeless when I get back. It's possible that I'll find a job at the end of my studies. I just have no good options. And I cannot really think right now.
Today I was out running errands during the time at which I usually having my afternoon caffeine, which keeps me functional/not overly drowsy throughout the evening. I never got that afternoon caffeine and now, at eight pm, I'm quite drowsy. Bedtime isn't for another three hours, so I'll be struggling to be productive until then.
If I'm fortunate, perhaps the lack of caffeine will help me sleep tonight. I haven't noticed the afternoon caffeine interfering with my sleep, but one or two people on the insomnia subreddit claim that cutting back on caffeine, even early in the day, helped them to sleep.
I went to my bank today and was caught off guard when the teller asked for updated ID. My DL expired recently. I haven't replaced it because I don't have the forty-five dollars it costs. I'm hoping to find a charity that will help me.
I went back to 3/4 of a melatonin pill last night and my sleep improved again. 1/4 of a pill makes such a huge difference.
The Czech Republic is mentioned on the podcast episode I started studying today, and it make me think about studying Czech. I miss the language. Such a nice language, a zillion times more pleasant than Mandarin. What am I doing with my life, giving up on a language I love to study a language I don't even like to go to a country that's going to get invaded? This plan is sprung from a mind that hasn't slept a full night in literally years. But I feel like, even if I go to Taiwan for only a year, it would be better than staying here. Which is not exactly true because, even if I have a great year, I'll be homeless when I get back. It's possible that I'll find a job at the end of my studies. I just have no good options. And I cannot really think right now.
