CourtTV is a time sink
Apr. 23rd, 2026 10:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianNow that I once again have access to invidious, I'm wasting time watching online videos. I start off watching while I eat meals, but most videos last longer than a meal, and I always want to finish what I've begun, so I end up continuing to watch instead of transitioning to a more productive activity after I'm done eating. This must stop. During and after dinner this evening, I watched nearly an hour of a medical examiner's testimony in a murder trial. CourtTV is really the worst kind of content to be taken with because all the videos are long.
Today wasn't terrible in terms of productiveness; I spent a good deal of time searching for scholarships, but came up empty-handed. If I ever come into a good sum of money, I'd like to create a scholarship for people who want to permanently leave the u.s. and/or study a foreign language overseas outside of a study abroad or foreign degree program.
The latter two describe nearly every language scholarship I've been able to find, so I don't qualify. I just want to do my one year of language school and then find a job. I wouldn't mind doing a master's degree; it just seems weird and like a bad idea given how much of my life I've already spent not earning any income. I'm going to go to my dream country and then spend two or three more years with no income? It sounds crazy and risky. I'll need money to stay long-term.
I finally slept again last night. I had to take a lot of melatonin. I keep trying to limit my melatonin intake because I seem to absorb it slowly and it leaves me groggy the morning after I've taken it, but I cannot sleep without quite a bit of it. I've just remembered that I had an interesting dream, but I cannot remember what happened in it, dammit.
I gave myself a great haircut today; I felt so attractive.
I am addicted to seaweed. It doesn't even taste all that good. I wonder whether I simply crave it because my iron is always low.
Through the job site to which the junior college illicitly gave my info, I received an invitation to an informational webinar or something for veterans. It's being presented by Customs and Border Protection. That's a booming industry right now. I, however, have no interest and even less aptitude for it.
Today wasn't terrible in terms of productiveness; I spent a good deal of time searching for scholarships, but came up empty-handed. If I ever come into a good sum of money, I'd like to create a scholarship for people who want to permanently leave the u.s. and/or study a foreign language overseas outside of a study abroad or foreign degree program.
The latter two describe nearly every language scholarship I've been able to find, so I don't qualify. I just want to do my one year of language school and then find a job. I wouldn't mind doing a master's degree; it just seems weird and like a bad idea given how much of my life I've already spent not earning any income. I'm going to go to my dream country and then spend two or three more years with no income? It sounds crazy and risky. I'll need money to stay long-term.
I finally slept again last night. I had to take a lot of melatonin. I keep trying to limit my melatonin intake because I seem to absorb it slowly and it leaves me groggy the morning after I've taken it, but I cannot sleep without quite a bit of it. I've just remembered that I had an interesting dream, but I cannot remember what happened in it, dammit.
I gave myself a great haircut today; I felt so attractive.
I am addicted to seaweed. It doesn't even taste all that good. I wonder whether I simply crave it because my iron is always low.
Through the job site to which the junior college illicitly gave my info, I received an invitation to an informational webinar or something for veterans. It's being presented by Customs and Border Protection. That's a booming industry right now. I, however, have no interest and even less aptitude for it.
