Another bad day
Apr. 18th, 2026 10:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianI had no idea yesterday was Friday. I lost a day or two somewhere.
It's ten twenty-two a.m. and I'm waiting for my caffeine kick in. I need to go to the grocery store for potatoes and salad greens, but I'm low on energy.
I downloaded some new podcasts to help me study Mandarin and reinforce Spanish and French. The French ones sound fine, but the Spanish-language one irks me. I don't have a problem with most accented English (I just hate Indian accented English, and listening to Australian can become a bit draining) but I have significantly less tolerance for hearing foreign languages spoken with non-native accents. I'm not sure why. It seems like there's more to it than the added comprehension difficulty. My accents in foreign languages tend to be pretty good, so maybe it annoys me that their accents sound so foreign.
I guess I'll go to the store without energy. I really want potatoes for lunch.
Today has been terrible. A very suicidal day. But I'm afraid the treadmill won't kill me. I tried to access RAINN but was blocked, probably because of my vpn. It doesn't really matter. They probably can't help me. They would probably feed me some normie bullshit about "reaching out" to other people to stop being suicidal, advice which would make me want to kill myself even more.
When am I going to finally stop chickening out and off myself.
It's ten twenty-two a.m. and I'm waiting for my caffeine kick in. I need to go to the grocery store for potatoes and salad greens, but I'm low on energy.
I downloaded some new podcasts to help me study Mandarin and reinforce Spanish and French. The French ones sound fine, but the Spanish-language one irks me. I don't have a problem with most accented English (I just hate Indian accented English, and listening to Australian can become a bit draining) but I have significantly less tolerance for hearing foreign languages spoken with non-native accents. I'm not sure why. It seems like there's more to it than the added comprehension difficulty. My accents in foreign languages tend to be pretty good, so maybe it annoys me that their accents sound so foreign.
I guess I'll go to the store without energy. I really want potatoes for lunch.
Today has been terrible. A very suicidal day. But I'm afraid the treadmill won't kill me. I tried to access RAINN but was blocked, probably because of my vpn. It doesn't really matter. They probably can't help me. They would probably feed me some normie bullshit about "reaching out" to other people to stop being suicidal, advice which would make me want to kill myself even more.
When am I going to finally stop chickening out and off myself.
