Today Felt Productive
Feb. 2nd, 2026 10:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianToday I found some inexpensive skincare products that address pih and have a low probability of provoking pih. It's unfortunate that I had to spend so much time online shopping before I found them, but that's often what happens when I shop online.
Today I received an email from my dor counselor. She said that the organization to which I'd asked to be refferred primarily serves other populations of disabled people (which I already knew) and that I'd been put on a long waitlist and wouldn't hear anything for four to six months. I asked about the waitlist and, amazingly, got a response several hours later, on the same day. The waitlist is actually only for people who aren't willing and/or able to do landscaping, sewing, or food service. I'm willing to do the first two, so I emailed the place directly for a job placement this evening. I was glad to be doing something that actually has some hope of leading to a job.
DOR mistakenly believed that I'd wanted to be referred for what they call "employment services." This is the useless bs that involves resume review, interviewing tips, etc. Talking about getting jobs rather than actually doing things to get them. I'm so sick of that bullshit. The best resume in the world isn't going to make up for my ten plus years of joblessness in an employer's eyes. I'm tired of languishing in poverty, so I need a right-now job until I can get a white-collar career. The fact that I had to press dor for details about the referral illustrates how useless they are. They're nothing but a piggy bank to me.
So tonight I'm hopeful and in good spirits. I'm glad it's Monday so I don't have to wait over the weekend for someone to respond.
I had another medical appointment today. I told the provider that I still sometimes feel cold despite the iron I'm taking. Because I'm taking it only every other day because of the cost, she tried to get it covered by insurance. I doubt that'll turn out in my favor, but I'm glad that she's trying. So the blood test I requested will be put off for several weeks, until I start taking the iron supplement daily.
She asked about the Chinese literature I had, and I told her that I'd planned to move to Taiwan. When I told her that I'd decided on Taiwan because it's warm (which maybe I still need, iron supplements or not) and safe, she started suggesting other countries and ended up mentioning Dubai. 'For women?' I asked, incredulous. She said that Dubai is a rather liberal place, but I'd rather die than go anywhere in the Middle East. Giant shithole is what it is. Seems like those people are always bombing each other. Plus that shit is a giant desert. That's absolutely the wrong kind of warm climate.
On APNews there is a story about Kentucky farmers who brought a newborn calf into their home because of extreme weather:
https://apnews.com/article/kentucky-calf-freezing-winter-70a256152c6cb9c5ae27184ac67e16e9
I hate cutesy stories like this, especially in this case because whatever these people own this creature for is so far from cute. They are extremely unlikely to be running an animal sanctuary, so their care for the calf is almost certainly a part of their animal exploitation. Poor Sally will likely end up trapped in reproductive slavery for her whole life, repeatedly impregnated until her body breaks down. Or she'll just be murdered and eaten. Sociopaths.
It's depressing and painful to come across stuff like this because it forces me to once again face the reality that I'll likely never find a vegan to have a relationship with. Eating animals and their secretions is so normalized, people don't even question it.
Being single is becoming more and more difficult. Sometimes I get this wild, panicky feeling, as if the social isolation is a sign of mortal danger, but I think underpinning that is more than just not having a partner; I think it has something to do with living in a society where people lack respect for others' lives.
I'm having a difficult time pulling myself away from Mandarin.
I woke up earlier than ever last night and still ended up dehydrated after having the coconut water an hour or so before bedtime, so I don't know what to do. I certainly felt better when I went to bed.
Today I received an email from my dor counselor. She said that the organization to which I'd asked to be refferred primarily serves other populations of disabled people (which I already knew) and that I'd been put on a long waitlist and wouldn't hear anything for four to six months. I asked about the waitlist and, amazingly, got a response several hours later, on the same day. The waitlist is actually only for people who aren't willing and/or able to do landscaping, sewing, or food service. I'm willing to do the first two, so I emailed the place directly for a job placement this evening. I was glad to be doing something that actually has some hope of leading to a job.
DOR mistakenly believed that I'd wanted to be referred for what they call "employment services." This is the useless bs that involves resume review, interviewing tips, etc. Talking about getting jobs rather than actually doing things to get them. I'm so sick of that bullshit. The best resume in the world isn't going to make up for my ten plus years of joblessness in an employer's eyes. I'm tired of languishing in poverty, so I need a right-now job until I can get a white-collar career. The fact that I had to press dor for details about the referral illustrates how useless they are. They're nothing but a piggy bank to me.
So tonight I'm hopeful and in good spirits. I'm glad it's Monday so I don't have to wait over the weekend for someone to respond.
I had another medical appointment today. I told the provider that I still sometimes feel cold despite the iron I'm taking. Because I'm taking it only every other day because of the cost, she tried to get it covered by insurance. I doubt that'll turn out in my favor, but I'm glad that she's trying. So the blood test I requested will be put off for several weeks, until I start taking the iron supplement daily.
She asked about the Chinese literature I had, and I told her that I'd planned to move to Taiwan. When I told her that I'd decided on Taiwan because it's warm (which maybe I still need, iron supplements or not) and safe, she started suggesting other countries and ended up mentioning Dubai. 'For women?' I asked, incredulous. She said that Dubai is a rather liberal place, but I'd rather die than go anywhere in the Middle East. Giant shithole is what it is. Seems like those people are always bombing each other. Plus that shit is a giant desert. That's absolutely the wrong kind of warm climate.
On APNews there is a story about Kentucky farmers who brought a newborn calf into their home because of extreme weather:
https://apnews.com/article/kentucky-calf-freezing-winter-70a256152c6cb9c5ae27184ac67e16e9
I hate cutesy stories like this, especially in this case because whatever these people own this creature for is so far from cute. They are extremely unlikely to be running an animal sanctuary, so their care for the calf is almost certainly a part of their animal exploitation. Poor Sally will likely end up trapped in reproductive slavery for her whole life, repeatedly impregnated until her body breaks down. Or she'll just be murdered and eaten. Sociopaths.
It's depressing and painful to come across stuff like this because it forces me to once again face the reality that I'll likely never find a vegan to have a relationship with. Eating animals and their secretions is so normalized, people don't even question it.
Being single is becoming more and more difficult. Sometimes I get this wild, panicky feeling, as if the social isolation is a sign of mortal danger, but I think underpinning that is more than just not having a partner; I think it has something to do with living in a society where people lack respect for others' lives.
I'm having a difficult time pulling myself away from Mandarin.
I woke up earlier than ever last night and still ended up dehydrated after having the coconut water an hour or so before bedtime, so I don't know what to do. I certainly felt better when I went to bed.
