The months I've wasted waiting on buses
Dec. 17th, 2024 07:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianFinished shopping at one thirty pm, didn't get home until around four pm. Waiting on buses.
At least I got some walking in. Missed the morning walk due to constipation. Constipation due to not sleeping. Not sleeping due to the bedroom being too warm. Now I know that after it rains, I need to sleep with the bedroom window open; otherwise, it's too cold to sleep with the bedroom window open. In winter only. Or late fall too, I guess. It's not even winter yet.
Why is it so warm after the rain?
I got to walk the last mile home with a migraine. Migraine due to skipping my daily magnesium. Skipped the magnesium because I'm almost out and can scarcely afford more, plus going out shopping was a last minute decision I made because I missed the morning walk. Plus it's sunny days that give me migraines. The weather report said today would be cloudy. The sun came out early in the afternoon.
Because it's rained for the past two days and because today was supposed to be cold and cloudy, I thought there might be surprise rain, so I took my umbrella. Wasn't thinking straight due to the migraine and noise on the bus, so I left the umbrella on the bus. Or maybe at the bus stop. Too sick to go back for it. So I've lost my last umbrella for nothing. No idea where the other two umbrellas are. In fact, I missed the first bus because I took too long looking for them.
Can't stop thinking about this guy who works at the community market.
He may have been on the bus with me today, sitting right across from me. Probably not, but maybe. I made sure to not look over there. Not many ethnic minorities in this area, especially not Asians.
No, no, no. He's too young for me. Or is he? East Asians age well. Everybody seems to think I'm half my age and it's awkward at best. I shouldn't do the same to others.
I got another bar of whitening soap at the Filipin@ market today. I didn't see any mung bean cake, but there was red bean cake up at the cash register. But the person who rung me up couldn't find the price. And I don't need junk food, empty calories, anyhow. So I said never mind, paid for my soap, and left. They didn't have the same brand of soap I got the first time I was there, and they didn't have the whitening, sunblocking facial moisturizer I saw and wanted and decided to come back for the first time I was there. So I don't know how well this soap will work, but I'm thinking it'll be ok because it has similar ingredients.
I'm still not used to going to bed at seven forty pm and getting up at three thirty am. It's not difficult; it's just weird, and my mental representation of the day's plans isn't completely aligned with this new schedule.
I looked for some quick-dissolve melatonin again today. Every brand I came acros had sucralose in it.
I put some cooked food items back on the shelves while grocery shopping today. I need to get used to focusing more on fruit. I have a five pound bag of rice, a month's supply of mung bean noodles, and pounds of potatoes in the fridge. Plus veggies and my tofu. That's enough for cooked meals.
I want this guy so bad,
I want x-rated things from him. I had a sudden flush (flash?) of modesty so I erased the last part of that last sentence.
He may be older than he looks but he can't be as old as me. I'm ancient.
At least I got some walking in. Missed the morning walk due to constipation. Constipation due to not sleeping. Not sleeping due to the bedroom being too warm. Now I know that after it rains, I need to sleep with the bedroom window open; otherwise, it's too cold to sleep with the bedroom window open. In winter only. Or late fall too, I guess. It's not even winter yet.
Why is it so warm after the rain?
I got to walk the last mile home with a migraine. Migraine due to skipping my daily magnesium. Skipped the magnesium because I'm almost out and can scarcely afford more, plus going out shopping was a last minute decision I made because I missed the morning walk. Plus it's sunny days that give me migraines. The weather report said today would be cloudy. The sun came out early in the afternoon.
Because it's rained for the past two days and because today was supposed to be cold and cloudy, I thought there might be surprise rain, so I took my umbrella. Wasn't thinking straight due to the migraine and noise on the bus, so I left the umbrella on the bus. Or maybe at the bus stop. Too sick to go back for it. So I've lost my last umbrella for nothing. No idea where the other two umbrellas are. In fact, I missed the first bus because I took too long looking for them.
Can't stop thinking about this guy who works at the community market.
He may have been on the bus with me today, sitting right across from me. Probably not, but maybe. I made sure to not look over there. Not many ethnic minorities in this area, especially not Asians.
No, no, no. He's too young for me. Or is he? East Asians age well. Everybody seems to think I'm half my age and it's awkward at best. I shouldn't do the same to others.
I got another bar of whitening soap at the Filipin@ market today. I didn't see any mung bean cake, but there was red bean cake up at the cash register. But the person who rung me up couldn't find the price. And I don't need junk food, empty calories, anyhow. So I said never mind, paid for my soap, and left. They didn't have the same brand of soap I got the first time I was there, and they didn't have the whitening, sunblocking facial moisturizer I saw and wanted and decided to come back for the first time I was there. So I don't know how well this soap will work, but I'm thinking it'll be ok because it has similar ingredients.
I'm still not used to going to bed at seven forty pm and getting up at three thirty am. It's not difficult; it's just weird, and my mental representation of the day's plans isn't completely aligned with this new schedule.
I looked for some quick-dissolve melatonin again today. Every brand I came acros had sucralose in it.
I put some cooked food items back on the shelves while grocery shopping today. I need to get used to focusing more on fruit. I have a five pound bag of rice, a month's supply of mung bean noodles, and pounds of potatoes in the fridge. Plus veggies and my tofu. That's enough for cooked meals.
I want this guy so bad,
I want x-rated things from him. I had a sudden flush (flash?) of modesty so I erased the last part of that last sentence.
He may be older than he looks but he can't be as old as me. I'm ancient.
